i dont know how to start it.
lets start from beginning.oke, camni, aku taktahu aku nak citer kat sape, if citer pun kat kawan roomate aku je, coz diorang memang betol betol memahami aku, aku sayang diorang. (:
that day, how come we never slow talk about this. suddenly, he says he can not continue the relationship, aku terkejut, and aku tanye kenape? and what i have done to you? aku betul betul tak paham. and then die suro aku tnye kat parsi, so aku tanye lah. sebabnye, firstly time kat pavi, aku teros tinggalkan die pergi beli makanan. parsi ckp kat aku, n then tu mmg aku salah coz aku tinggalkan die, yarh i know how he feel. tp aq tak sempat ckp macam tu sbb parsi melulu ckp, second parsi ckp kat aku, time kt pavi yang aku kuar ngn kwn aku n time tu amir kuar ngn family die, aq terdiam sbb aku takboleh nk explain kat die, sbb parsi taktahu pape, so biar aku sendiri xplain kt amir sndiri, but buat ape aku nak bohong right? at least aku dah ckp ape yang patut kt die, but until now still no word from him. third about picture, parsi ckp ngan aku, if seorang perempuan tu ade adek angkat, seseorang tu mesty pentingkan adek angkat dei dr bf die sendiri, aq dah tergamam dgr parsi ckp cam tu, sbb aku tak macam tu, sesedap die je cakap macam tu, aku memang takboleh nak ckp pape, n one thing aku tak macam tu lah der, just macam adek n akak je, please pk positif n matured, hal kecik je kot, haih i dont know how to explain supaye die phm, yee if die lah macam aku, aku mesty pk positif, yela sbb kite dah tahu kite dah ade BF, oke enough, next, ini lagy lagy memeningkan aku, i have told my mum already not to send him text, then when i know that from his friend, aku terkejut, sebab aku taktahu pape, n text yang mak aku hantar tu uurrgghhh memang fear gila. tp aku tahu, even mak aku say mcm tu, mak aku tak buat lah, saje je cakap macam tu, i know how she is. but now die takot ngn parent aku, aku nak perbetulkan relationship kiteorang ny macam dulu, but how? i afraid of what he might say. GOSSSHHH,
let see this, i wish i will be a better for u, but u never understand n try to understand me. i try to make u happy, i try to keep u be mine forever, i try to keep my tears inside, i try to telling u, n i hope u can hear me. it's very make my hear hurt so bad. yarh, maybe i'm bad for you n not perfect enough for u.
until now, i still remember the first time i meet you, still remember the first time u told me you love me, i still remember the first time u meet my parent n tell about your feel infront me, n that time i was SOOOO GLAD when i hear that, but is about yesterday, today i still crying coz that word just a dream n u will never know how i feel.
the last from me iloveyou just so u know, i never forget this word.
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Once in my life, i felt like a loser. i blame myself for that because unexpected things can happen to all of us kan? but does everything really happen for a reason?
